Being Thankful for Trials
When I moved into this house, I was ecstatic that I had a huge walk in closet. Finally, I can have a war room. A place I can dedicate to spending time with my Father in heaven. I quickly cleaned up a corner of that closet, removed any clothing that was in that area and placed a folded thick blanket as a place to sit. I moved a small table in that corner with my Bible opened to the Ten Commandments found in Exodus 20 and a candle. Underneath the tables, were containers for prayer requests, fears and praises reports. That prayer closet was my lifeline. I would go in there, pour out my heart to my Father in heaven, and say things to Him that was meant only for His ears. It was truly my most prized possession.
Recently, I learned that some people had cameras and listening devices in my home, my bedroom and prayer closet. My worst fears had come true. Someone had me on film showering, dressing and only God knows what else. The part that disturbed me most is that I use my prayer closet daily and sometimes, multiple times per day. That corner of the closet was dedicated to God and I considered it pretty special.
When I found out about this, I was devastated. I cried for four days straight and lost six pounds. On the fourth day of intense soul searching, God reminded me that His perfect Son was stripped naked, beaten, spit on, and humiliated and then hung on the cross. He took my punishment and He did nothing wrong. I then realized that I am still clinging on to the idea that people especially Christians will treat me better than they treated Jesus. What a ludicrous idea! Romans 8:17 says “and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him. “ I was strengthened by this reminder and miraculously felt better and knew that I could overcome yet another trial. I then asked God what do you want me to learn from this. His reply was what are you ashamed of people seeing besides your nakedness?
That was a startling question and I had to do some deep heart searching in order to understand what God was requiring of me. I had to ask myself am I ashamed of movies I watch on my laptop? Does it please and glorify God? Would the conversations I had with friends please Him? I had to admit that I was not living above reproach, even in private. Am I living according to the light I have? Sadly, the answer was no. While this experience was humiliating, gut wrenching and humbling, I praise God for it because it is through this trial that I am humbling myself before the Lord giving Him all of me being more mindful to live according to 1 Corinthians 10:31-33 which says “So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. Give no offense to Jews or to Greeks or to the church of God, just as I try to please everyone in everything I do, not seeking my own advantage, but that of many, that they may be saved.”
Remember, all trials that God allows in your life are for your growth. Do not ignore the lesson as God is a good Father and will make you repeat the assignment until you learn. Why does He do this? Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.
- Aviya LeBrun